Finding the Ability to Love and Laugh Again with Ketamine Therapy
I grew up in an active family of entertainers and broadcasters. We all participated in some form or another, from being the voice behind a microphone to announcing sports in front of the television cameras. We sang commercials, hosted radio talk shows, and the list goes on. We also grew up on a 100-acre farm where we raised beef cattle, horses, and chickens. We were able to escape the hustle and bustle of the big city life until my parents relocated us to the North Shore of Chicago. We kept our horses, which were so helpful to me in my life for therapeutic reasons.
Life seemed to take a drastic turn of events soon after relocating. I experienced sexual abuse from a relative for a few years. Unfortunately, that issue was rarely addressed back then, yet it left emotional scars. Also, my parents divorced, which caused an emotional discord in the family unit. Both parents had several failed marriages afterward. That in turn was the biggest cause of depression for my mother as well as myself. My brothers seemingly were able to handle everything much better and move on with their lives, but they also had failed marriages. As the youngest in our family, I felt so alone and abandoned after my parents split up. I was so close to my father and I did not want to be separated from him.
My father and I had a close bond. We would take horse rides together on Sundays and we would always have fun by joking around with one another. Moments like these were eventually taken away due to court restrictions that occurred with the divorce. Eventually, I stayed with my mother. In the beginning, I was not close to my mother, but later in life my mother and I have become very close. Compared to my father, there was never a feeling of being loved or cared about in general.
Masking my depression became easy at first. Turning to food to help me feel better was the norm; however, that started to cause weight gain, which still to this day is a thorn in my side. I was so active as a child. I excelled in sports such as gymnastics, cheerleading, and trick horse riding. My weight was never a problem during those youthful times. During my college years, I experimented with a few drugs, but yoga took over along with exercise, eating well, and being with students in the health field. I surrounded myself with a group of positive and like-minded individuals that eventually led me on a journey of becoming a massage therapist.
After I married, my depression started to flare up again. Thinking that having a family would help, my husband and I started our family. However, my pregnancy caused an imbalance with my adrenal glands and thyroid. Soon afterward, I was faced with chronic pain and 14 major surgeries that gave me enough titanium in my body to build myself a “She Shed”!
I begin to spin out of control while facing depression and chronic pain symptoms. I started using antidepressants and opiates which also made me feel like there was no return. During this time, I also experienced marriage problems and separated from my husband for a while. This was not an easy time, but I thank God that I have a wonderful husband of 41 years that was with me through all this.
After hearing about ketamine, and researching this for two years, I decided to move forward with Ketamine Wellness Centers in Naperville, Chicago for depression treatments. After the first infusion, there was such a nice change in my behavior that even my family noticed. I felt so much better than I had felt in a long time. There was a marked improvement in my temperament, a wonderful balance in my mood, and control in my speaking ability. Also, I have more awareness of my surroundings and care for others. The pain is less, which makes focusing and listening to others so much easier.
The ability to laugh and love more with my husband is so enjoyable. I realized that being married to the same person for 41 years is becoming so much easier. I look forward to more enjoyable years to come. Taking back what depression stole from me is making daily life seem a bit easier. Sleeping and playing word games on my phone are just some of those things.
Life is better. No, it’s not perfect, but nothing in life is, and never will be. My faith in Jesus and the support of my church family is what keeps me going. If you are willing to accept your faults, mistakes, move forward, and not focus on the negativity, you will do great things in this journey of life.
Deni Weigel Eads is a patient at KWC Chicago
Ketamine Wellness Centers – Chicago
603 E Diehl Rd, Suite #139
Naperville, IL 60563